My individual language

1. My individual language

2. The connection between the outside world and my world is misted over • *Weakening • *Fear from what about to occur • *The ground fell under my feet • *Paralysis • *Pain • *Sadness • *Awareness of the condition • *Longing • *Thoughts • *Attempt to memorialize and in the same time understand that I must keep on living • *Attempt to connect to the dead in any possible way • *Back to regular life with thoughts and reflections of the dead • *Doing things connecting me with the dead • *Understanding every word he said and implement it in my life • *New observation about myself • *Bigger Awareness of my self ability • *Bigger Awareness of the person I am • *Creating my self character Numb - absolute separation from the outside world - a process with myself wile feeling that is the only thing exist and occur in the world The world keep on moving, at the same time I understand I should be joining it. Trying to figure how to combine life with mourning (partial separation from the world) Back to the world with thoughts about what happened, and attempt to understand where I stand now Self development consequent upon the death. My place in the world is now understood - as a strong and evolving character - process of acceptance